Sinusoidal

Yeah you physics nerds should know what that means.


It’s also what I call it is my rule of sine (xin) where everything good is followed by something bad and vice versa. For example on Monday I had a brilliant day. Refer to ‘eeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3’. Then as soon as I got home my mother was in a grumpy mood and she yelled and then my father yelled and then I yelled. It was the most yelling I’ve done all year. So good is counteracted with bad. Always. It’s not always straightaway but it happens.

It makes sense to the science side of my mind as well. Everything has its’ balance. In biology things always pair up. Chemistry uses balanced equations. Physics states that for every reaction there is an equal and opposite reaction.

Anyway the provocation of this was that recently I’ve been feeling weird. Happy because I have a boy. Sad, with a growing sense of despair, because I have so much work. (Which blogging isn’t really helping with.) Frustrated because my parents are annoying. Confused because I should just be happy. Crazy because this is ridiculous. Just mood swinging in a sinusoidal fashion. It won’t last, the counterbalance will happen. I just have to ride this wave out.

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WE ARE NATURE

I like this quote alot as it both expresses our increasing disconnection with ourselves and how nature is a fundamental part of us and our lives.

I've always admired nature and how we have adapted to become our best. Yet, at the same time I wonder at what is happening to humanity. If we are slowly dissociating ourselves from nature, what are we moving towards? By seperating nature an ourselves are we becoming unnatural? We are not monsters, yet what is our purpose?

A fundamental part of nature is balance, yin and yang, birth and death are all interlocked within nature. As humans however our main objective seemingly is to conquer nature. This I do not understand, but then again I don't understand a lot of things.

I'm going to try and update this regularly. All my thinking has to go somewhere.