That Nothing in the World Can Find You?

Don't worry Cammybear I don't intend to kill you and take your skin anytime soon. Who would I watch pokemon with then? :P

Well the picture and quote don't really relate but I like the quote and wanted to share. Coz I'm sharing and caring. Yup that's me. Anyway in english we've been reading A Streetcar Named Desire; which is nice. And we've been asking: what is desire and how is it different from wanting? I'm currently thinking desire is something you want emotionally, as opposed to cravings or whatever. What you desire is something that if you think you get it you'll be fulfilled, satisfied but in reality true desire is insatiable. Feel free to disagree entirely with me.

Short post because sister is angry small child.

<3 xin

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By Emerson's definition have I already succeeded? It's nice to think so.

Anyway the end of the holidays is drawing near. Oh la rentree! Ce n'est pas formidable.

That probably has horrible grammar but I don't claim to be good at french. I have not been productive at all and this is slightly concerning to me. I think my laziness shall be my downfall. Or my fear and subsequent refusal to grow up.

I wanted to write about the LXD; Legion of Extraordinary Dancers. BUT I can't view their awesomeness in Australia which is severely disappointing.

Due to my holidays hermitage I have been playing Scrabble. Which I am hoping counts as english homework with its' vocabulary building benefits. Both time that I played at night, 11.30ish with my family I NEARLY could spell dinosaur. Maybe spirits are sending me messages but I WANT MY 50POINT BONUS.

On a less anger inspiring subject I am currently trying to devise a playlist to put on a mixtape (mixCD). Ah the good old mixtape. Love and music in one. Thank you Sally for offering a swap of such amazement.

This has taken an hour to write. That is way too long. Thus I end things here and now.

xin

Off Balanced

I’m so sore and tired right now. Yesterday I went to my friend Lucy’s birthday in a park. It was wonderful running around. Yes I know I’m 16 but it was fun ok? Running around like I’m 9 without a care in the world is fun. Even the pain feels nice in a way; reminds me of when I did soccer and the like. I love playgrounds! Why the hell would I want to grow up? Yeah, take that sister, miss ‘you guys are so lame’. She’s younger than me and she thinks she’s so cool.
Despite the massive amounts of awesome I felt a little off balance the whole day. Still do. It’s probably whoremones and lack of sleep but it stopped me from smiling excessively. Of course this off balance thing is what I blame my multiple un-co failures on playground equipment on. I swear I’m normally I’m great at being a little kid. (Insert joke about me being the kid sized, hahaha.)

Anyway, though I wasn’t smiling excessively it was still great. We had spinny, dizzy making rides on the roundabout, (which is where I fell off gracefully); there was good cake, with MEOW written on it in SMARTIES; I got to make a good call about candle replacements; I got lots of squeezehugs; I got to ride on my good friend’s manly shoulders; we climbed multiple playground equipments and we got to wear my fake-bowler hat with a flower on it. Obviously a great day.

I know I said at the start of this blog that I’d write well and not just about feelings and bleh. I’m getting around to that. Sometime I will be writing stuff on politics or philosophy or books. Oh dear. I also have a weekend of doing all my holiday homework ahead of me.

Until then though, you’re stuck with this stuff and I’m going to curl up in a ball and sleep.

p.s. I wish you could be in my hall right now. We have a lego tower that goes from the floor to the ceiling.

That's more than two metres. It is amazing. This one was because of my brother. I am proud

WE ARE NATURE

I like this quote alot as it both expresses our increasing disconnection with ourselves and how nature is a fundamental part of us and our lives.

I've always admired nature and how we have adapted to become our best. Yet, at the same time I wonder at what is happening to humanity. If we are slowly dissociating ourselves from nature, what are we moving towards? By seperating nature an ourselves are we becoming unnatural? We are not monsters, yet what is our purpose?

A fundamental part of nature is balance, yin and yang, birth and death are all interlocked within nature. As humans however our main objective seemingly is to conquer nature. This I do not understand, but then again I don't understand a lot of things.

I'm going to try and update this regularly. All my thinking has to go somewhere.