Drowning

Yes I know every yr 12 student ever has probably complained about this.
I'm not the first and I won't be the last, but I am drowning in work.
Everytime I catch up, a new wave drags me under.

I feel like I've screwed things up. For a while now.
So many things I should have done, so many things that could be so much more.
It's not just the fact that I didn't do any work last year and am now an idiot.
It's just myself. I want to do so much more.
I currently am doing the 'asian 5' so maths and science and english.
Original aren't I? The thing is I really do enjoy humanities AS WELL as sciency stuff.
Argh. I guess that's the point of this blog. It is my shadow lives.

Explain you say! (or not seeing as no one reads this)
Well even in the relative anonymity on the internet I don't like telling people important things.
Any more than I dislike myself greatly at the moment for so many mistakes.
I know perfection is impossible and probably bad, yet I want more.
Huh, doesn't everyone?

WE ARE NATURE

I like this quote alot as it both expresses our increasing disconnection with ourselves and how nature is a fundamental part of us and our lives.

I've always admired nature and how we have adapted to become our best. Yet, at the same time I wonder at what is happening to humanity. If we are slowly dissociating ourselves from nature, what are we moving towards? By seperating nature an ourselves are we becoming unnatural? We are not monsters, yet what is our purpose?

A fundamental part of nature is balance, yin and yang, birth and death are all interlocked within nature. As humans however our main objective seemingly is to conquer nature. This I do not understand, but then again I don't understand a lot of things.

I'm going to try and update this regularly. All my thinking has to go somewhere.